ugh

I have never quite felt like this before. And no, it's not that butterflies in your stomach type feeling....more like the lump in your throat type.

A year ago was when I made the decision to stay here. My heart was in a different place. A whole different wave of emotions was going on...and a kick myself everyday for letting it take over. With each day that goes by, I get slapped in the face one way or another with the fact that I don't belong here and this is definitely not where I want to be.